martin firrell

the question mark inside

november 2008

st paul's cathedral tercentenary

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WHAT MAKES LIFE MEANINGFUL IS A NONSENSICAL QUESTION TO SOMEONE STARVING

THE COCONUT SCENT OF GORSE

THE COLD AND YOUR BREATH BLOWN OUT

THE PRICELESSNESS OF EVERY HUMAN LIFE

THE PRICELESSNESS OF EVERY HUMAN LIFE (arabic)

ADMITTING DEFEAT AND GIVING UP ON A BORING BOOK

THE BEAUTY OF IDEAS

THE BEAUTY OF IDEAS (arabic)

ASKING ABOUT YOUR PURPOSE, IS PURPOSE

A BLEND OF CHOICES AND THEIR CONSEQUENCES

WE ADMIRE PEOPLE FOR WHAT THEY TRY TO DO, NOT FOR WHAT THEY'VE DONE

LOVE, UNSCHEDULED AND UNRULY

YOUR FACE RATHER THAN ANY OTHER

IDEAS THAT LEAD TO OUR FLOURISHING

THE QUANTUM NET THAT ENERGISES US ALL

THE SUDDEN BLUE OF THE SEA AS IF BLUER THAN GOD EVER INTENDED

THE CHARACTERISTIC SET OF YOUR JAW

THE ACCIDENTAL COLLISION OF FRIENDS-TO-BE

THE ROYAL FAMILIES OF AFRICA

THE CATHEDRAL AS A MARK OF CONTINUATION

ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVE

ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVE (arabic)

YOU SAID, I'M WILLIAM!

LIFE EXISTS TO PROVE ITS OWN POSSIBILITY

THE ASTONISHING CAPACITY THE WORD HAS FOR BEAUTY

THE GREAT PRIVILEGE OF SIGHT

THE GREAT PRIVILEGE OF SIGHT (hindi)

OTHER BUSINESS DIRECTED TOWARDS THINGS THAT ARE NOT WORLDLY

ALL CRUELTY IS FAILURE

ALL CRUELTY IS FAILURE (arabic)

WILL WE GROW OLDER AND WISER OR SIMPLY OLDER?

ALL TYRANTS FALL

ALL TYRANTS FALL (hindi)

THE IMPOSSIBILITY OF LOVE

GREEN NEON ADVERTISING THE SPLENDOURS OF GIZA ZOO

THIS CATHEDRAL SAVED MY LIFE

IF YOU HAVEN'T HAD YOUR OWN LIFE, WHAT HAVE YOU HAD?

THE TORRENT OF WORDS WE WASTE EACH DAY

USING OUR INFLUENCE WISELY

RAIN BECAUSE IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN CONNECTED IN MY MIND WITH KINDNESS

THE LOVE OF GOD

WHAT ARE WE PROGRESSING TOWARDS?

SHOPPING IS NOT HAPPINESS

EVERYTHING IS RESURRECTED IN MEMORY

THE BRINGING DOWN OF INJUSTICE

WHY DID OUR GOVERNMENT LIE ABOUT RENDITION?

WHY ARE THESE PEOPLE STILL IN POWER?

WHY ARE WOMEN STILL DISCRIMINATED AGAINST?

WHY ARE WOMEN STILL DISCRIMINATED AGAINST? (hindi)

WHY DOES ONE WOMAN DIE IN CHILDBIRTH EVERY MINUTE?

WHY DOES ONE WOMAN DIE IN CHILDBIRTH EVERY MINUTE? (hindi)

SAND IN MY SHOES

A PONTOON RIDE ON THE MISSISSIPPI RIVER

BEING BIPOLAR

THE WAY PEOPLE DO THAT FUNNY SQUINT WHEN IT'S RAINING

THE CORRELATION BETWEEN DEATH AND LOVE

EVERYBODY SHOULD BE ENTITLED TO AT LEAST ONE PERSONAL IDIOSYNCRASY

THE SADNESS OF ALL THE BLOOD ON OUR HANDS

WHY ARE HALF A MILLION IRAQI CHILDREN DEAD?

WHY IS THERE SO MUCH BLOOD ON OUR HANDS?

A GRAVE AND SINCERE APOLOGY TO THE PEOPLE OF IRAQ

A GRAVE AND SINCERE APOLOGY TO THE PEOPLE OF IRAQ (arabic)

THIS WOUNDED EARTH

THE LARGEST NUMBER YOU CAN IMAGINE + 1

WHY ARE SO MANY PEOPLE AFRAID?

IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHERE THE LINE'S DRAWN
MOVE IT

I WANT TO LIVE IN A CITY WHERE THE POLICE DON'T SHOOT YOU

THE END OF INEPT AND DISHONEST GOVERNMENT

EVERY HUMAN LIFE IS OWED TO A WOMAN

THE VOLUPTUOUS PLEASURE THAT THERE IS UNCERTAINTY

THE VOLUPTUOUS PLEASURE THAT THERE IS UNCERTAINTY (hindi)

THE FORTITUDE TO STRIDE HEADLONG INTO THE STORM

THE FORTITUDE TO STRIDE HEADLONG INTO THE STORM (hindi)

THE FREEDOM TO MAKE OUR OWN LIVES WITHOUT INTERFERENCE

SANS PEUR ET SANS REPROCHE

EVERYTHING IN ITS MINUTEST VARIATION

EVERY RIVER CAN BE CROSSED

PEOPLE BEYOND PERSUASION TERRIFY US

THE TENSION OF PROPER ARGUMENT

THE UNIVERSE IS NOT CHAOS
IT'S CONNECTION

WHEN YOU LEFT ME I HAD TO LEARN TO LIVE AGAIN

WHEN THE RICH DO IT, IT'S WAR

WHEN THE POOR DO IT, IT'S TERRORISM

OUR RIGHT TO FAIR AND TRUTHFUL GOVERNMENT

PROTEST DETENTION WITHOUT CHARGE

PROTEST DETENTION WITHOUT CHARGE (arabic)

WHEN'S ALL SAID AND DONE, WHAT WILL YOU HAVE SAID AND DONE?

ANY WORD USED TO HURT OR HUMILIATE IS OBSCENE

ANYONE WHO'S CERTAIN HAS LOST THE QUICKENING SENSE OF WHAT IS NOT KNOWN

I'M NOT ASKING YOU TO AGREE, I'M ASKING YOU TO THINK

THE GREAT ENEMY IS UNCONDITIONAL BELIEF IN ANYTHING

LIFE HAS FIRST TO BE FREELY LIVED

DAYS USED UP OR UNDER-UTILISED

MY MEDICATION HELPS ME TO GET OUT OF BED EACH MORNING

APRÈS LA GUERRE, APRÈS LES MARIAGES, LES ENFANTS, APRÈS LES DIVORCES, LES LIVRES

ENVY IS THE MEANEST OF ALL THE PASSIONS

HOW CAN WE LIVE WELL IF GOVERNMENT KILLS IN OUR NAME?

NO ONE SHOULD BE DETAINED WITHOUT TRIAL

HOW CAN WE LIVE WITH THE SHAME OF UNTRUTHFUL GOVERNMENT?

ORGANISED RELIGION MAKES ME UNEASY

I DON'T LIKE BELIEF TO BE ANNOUNCED

SOMETHING ENTERS THE SILENCE OF THE ROOM

SOMETHING ENTERS NOT ENTIRELY OF THIS WORLD

I AM ANOTHER YOURSELF

WE CANNOT MAKE THE DEAD LIVE AGAIN

PEACEFUL, RESPECTFUL, FREE, CONSCIOUS

THE FIRST AND EARLIEST TIME OF LOVE

THE HEREAFTER IN THE HERE AND NOW

IN THE ARGUMENT, IS WHERE LIFE IS

ALL LEGITIMATE GOVERNMENT IS LOVING RETICENCE

WE WILL UNSEAT DISHONEST GOVERNMENT

WE WILL BRING DOWN DISHONEST GOVERNMENT

WHEN THE WORLD'S RUN BY FOOLS IT'S THE DUTY OF INTELLIGENCE TO DISOBEY

SOMETIMES I THINK LIFE IS UNSALAVAGEABLY SAD

THE TRAIL OF DAYS BEHIND US

HOW CAN WE LIVE WELL IF WE POISON THE SEA?

TAKE ONLY WHAT YOU NEED, USE ONLY WHAT YOU NEED

HONOUR THE EARTH YOUR MOTHER

HONOUR THE EARTH YOUR MOTHER (hindi)

LIFE REACHES OUT TO LIFE

LIFE REACHES OUT TO LIFE (arabic)

LIFE REACHES OUT TO LIFE (hindi)

WE ARE ALL A WORK IN PROGRESS OF IMMENSE COURAGE AND THOUGHTFULNESS

THERE ARE FORCES THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO COMPREHEND

A NAIL IN THE HAND

A HUMAN LIFE IS LESS THAN 600 WAKING MONTHS

IT'S PERFECLY POSSIBLE TO LIVE SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE

BY MISTAKE

THIS STRUGGLE FOR A PERSONAL LIFE, TO BE LOVED

WHAT'S LOST ON THE WAY

GRIEF DEEPENS OUR EXPERIENCE OF BEING ALIVE

ALL THAT YOUTH: A KIND OF WARTIME OF YOUTH

THE FIRST AND FRAGILE LOVE AFFAIR

THE COMPLETE WRAPPED MYSTERY OF THE PERSON OPPOSITE

THE WAY YOUR HAIR CURLS AT THE NAPE OF YOUR NECK

THE CONNECTION BETWEEN KINDNESS AND GREATNESS

THE DIFFUSED WHITE LIGHT OF OVERCAST SKIES

THE DARK GREY LIGHT OF STORMS

THE LONG-HAUL TRAVELLERS OF SKIES THAT COME UP FROM BENEATH THE ATLANTIC

THE LONG-HAUL TRAVELLERS OF SKIES THAT COME UP FROM BENEATH THE ATLANTIC (hindi)

MERCILESS ELITES

THE AMBITIONS OF THE POWERFUL

THE WEAKNESS OF CRUELTY

I AM NOT SURE WHY I AM HERE ON EARTH IN THIS TIME

I FEEL PRESSURE FROM THE OUTSIDE TO CONSUME, ACQUIRE

ORGANISED RELIGION IS SOMETHING I FIND HARD TO FOLLOW

I OFTEN WONDER HOW I CAN BE SURE I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING

IT'S THE SPLINTER IN MY HAND I CAN'T GET OUT

THE PURPOSE OF MY LIFE IS TO TRY OUT THE IDEAS I HAVE FOR IT

I WANT TO FACE WHAT COMES WITH COURAGE AND INSIGHT

I WANT TO FEEL PART OF SOMETHING GRAND

YOU'RE NOT THE LONELY CENTRE OF THE UNIVERSE

KNOWLEDGE THAT ISN'T TAUGHT

TRAVELLING ON THE SACRED ORDERS OF THE UNIVERSE

INVISIBLE TIGERS

GROWING WHEAT IN THE PALMS OF YOUR HANDS

GROWING WHEAT IN THE PALMS OF YOUR HANDS (hindi)

RISING ON AN ELBOW TO ADMIRE THE PERFECT STRIDE OF A DESERT NOMAD

I BELIEVE IN LONDONERS

I BELIEVE IN LONDONERS (arabic)

UNCLASSIFIABLE LOVE HOWEVER YOU FIND IT

THE VAST UNCONSCIOUS WELL THAT HOLDS ALL LOVE

I WANT LOVERS TO RESPECT EACH OTHER

I THINK ABOUT THE PAST A LOT

I WANT TO HAVE LEARNED WHATEVER I CAN

I AM BOSSY, STUBBORN, ANXIOUS, QUICK TO JUDGE AND HOLD A GRUDGE

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THERE IS WAR

I DON'T THINK THIS IS WHAT GOD INTENDED

IT COULD BE CHEMICALS IN OUR BRAINS

BIG RISKS EQUAL BIG REWARDS

ENCOURAGEMENT GIVES RISE TO QUESTIONS

I WANT GOVERMENTS TO RESPECT THEIR PEOPLE

WAR CAN'T BE THE ANSWER

I FEEL I SHOULD WANT TO DO MORE, HAVE MORE, BE MORE

WE ARE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO KNOWING WHO WE REALLY ARE

THERE'S SOMETHING ELSE ALWAYS SLIGHTLY OUT OF REACH

I HAVE COME THROUGH A TIME WHEN I WANTED TO DIE

I THOUGHT MY PURPOSE SIMPLY WASN'T

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THERE IS ADDICTION

GRATITUDE LEADS TO ACTS OF KINDNESS

GOD IS A CONCEPT

I THINK OF ST PAUL'S AS A SURVIVOR

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SOMEONE SAYS THEY LOVE YOU WHEN THEY DON'T MEAN IT

AFFECTION MORE THAN LOVE

GOD IN THE MOST MUNDANE DETAIL

MORALITY WITHOUT RELIGIOUS DOGMA

FREEDOME TO SAY WHAT WE FEEL

THE FREEDOM TO LOVE WHO WE PLEASE

THE FREEDOM TO BE DIFFERENT

CHRIST DIED, CHRIST IS RISEN
CHRIST WILL COME AGAIN

B'SHALOM, FRIEND

SOMEDAY I WILL LOVE MYSELF FOR ME AND NOT FOR WHAT I THINK EVERYONE THINKS I SHOULD BE

A VAST, ADAMANT, GENTLE, BRAVE ACCOMMODATING SPACE

NOTHING IS PRESCRIBED, COMPLETED, DONE WITH

EVERYTHING IS FLUID, HALF-SEEN, OPEN

FEELING IS ITS OWN LAW AND TRUTH

THE COURTESY TO PAY ATTENTION WHEN THE SKY IS WOOING YOU

A DOOR OPENED INSIDE MY HEAD AND THERE WAS THE VAST, IMPOSSIBLY IMMENSE IDEA OF GOD

FEARS GIVEN INTO AND OPPORTUNITIES NOT TAKEN

PANIC RISING ABOUT A LIFE NOT PROPERLY LIVED

THE MAJESTY OF BELIEF AND OF CHRIST'S AGONY

THE WORLD IS CHANGED BY A TURN OF MIND

FREEDOM OF BELIEF

I FELT THAT I HAD LOOKED SHADOW, OR DARKNESS, IN THE FACE

LE SILENCE ÉTERNEL DE CES ESPACES INFINIS M'EFFRAIE

WHAT DO WE REALLY MEAN BY FREEDOM?

FREEDOM TO PURSUE OUR OWN ENDS REGARDLESS OF OTHERS?

FREEDOM TO CONSUME?

EVERYTHING I LOST. EVERYTHING WE ALL LOSE

WHAT LIFE ISN'T MESSY?

ANYTHING WE FEEL KEENLY CAN ALSO HURT KEENLY

AN EXQUISITELY BEAUTIFUL PRISON FOR THE MIND

VAST AND BEAUTIFUL LIKE FALLING IN LOVE FORTHE FIRST TIME

MYSTERY GROWS GARDENS, WILD CREATURES, BUILDINGS, WORDS AND MUSIC

EVERYTHING TURNS ONLY TO MEMORY

HOW BOUNDED OUR LIVES REALLY ARE

HOW UNEXTRAORDINARY OUR LIVES REALLY ARE

I WANT TO NOT CARE, TO FLY AWAY, TO BE SOMEWHERE ELSE

WHAT IF YOU ARE NOT SO AFRAID OF DEATH
AS OF A LIFE THAT'S NOT ENTIRELY YOUR OWN?

YOU CAN'T STEP BACK INTO IGNORANCE

WHAT'S KNOWN IS NOW KNOWN

I AM WEAK AND EASILY DISTRACTED

SOMETIMES IT'S JUST NOISE MASQUERADING AS LIFE

QUESTIONS ABOUT THE REAL NATURE OF THINGS

AND LATER STILL, QUESTIONS ABOUT THE UNSEEN

ACCEPTANCE THAT THERE IS NOTHING TO RAIL AGAINST

YOU SAID, IN THAT MOMENT ON THE BEACH YOU WERE ENTIRELY HAPPY

IT WAS A MOMENT IN BOTH OUR LIVES THAT MARKED OR CHANGED THINGS

THERE'S AN OBLIGATION TO TRY EVERY ROUTE TO HAPPINESS

EVERYTHING CAN BE REGARDED AS POSSIBLE

INFLAMING THE EXPERIENCE OF LIFE WITH IDEAS

LEANING FORWARD SO THAT FATE CAN CATCH SIGHT OF YOU

THE PAIN OF LIFE SOMETIMES, THE CUT OF IT

THIS IS THE WAY THE WORLD REALLY ENDS
NOT WITH A WHIMPER BUT A DESPERATE CHUCKLE

A REVOLUTION OF CULTURAL AND MORAL OPENNESS

BRING YOUR OWN OPINION

LARGENESS OF IDEAS, IMAGINATION AND THOUGHT

NO QUICKNESS TO JUDGE

FACE THE REALITIES AND REMAKE THEM WITH WIT AND INVENTION

WE MAKE. WE BREAK

THE CHALLENGES OF THE MIDDLE YEARS

LOVE THAT'S FAILED

CHILDREN

THE TERRIBLE STRUGGLE TO EMERGE AS INDIVIDUALS

NONE OF THIS CHANGES THE MATERIAL FACTS OF LIFE

NOTHING LASTING WAS EVER BUILT WITHOUT LOVE

NOTHING LASTING WAS EVER BUILT WITHOUT LOVE (arabic)

STILL WE FOLLOW THE WELL TRODDEN PATHS

IMAGINATION HAS NOT SAVED US

HOPE'S LAST STAND AND ITS FINAL TRIUMPH

THE AIR ITSELF IS LAUGHING WITH US

THE ROAD TO FREEDOM IS BORDERED WITH SUNFLOWERS

IT'S ALWAYS THERE ALTHOUGH YOU CAN'T ALWAYS SEE IT

I LIKE TO THINK OF ST PAUL'S AS THE GIANT BREAST OF LONDON

A GREAT STONE REMINDER THAT WOMEN ARE AS MUCH A PART OF THE FABRIC OF LONDON AS MEN

THAT WE CAN WALK THE STREETS WITHOUT FEAR

THAT EVEN A PATRIARCHAL RELIGION ERECTS MONUMENTS TO OUR LIFE-GIVING MIRACULOUS SELVES

THAT WE HAVE THE POWER AND THE RIGHT TO REACH A STATE OF EQUALITY

TO BE PROMINENT IN THE LIFE, AS WELL AS ON THE SKYLINE, OF THIS GREAT CITY

HOW ABOUT WE HAVE BEEN DEAD AND WHAT WE MUST DO AFTER WE DIE?

WHY WE GO TO THE CHURCHES WHEN WE ARE LIVING

BECAUSE I THINK THE DIVINES AND CHRISTS ARE DEAD IN THE CHURCHES

AND PROVIDE THE SERVICES, CARES AND MERRYS ON OUR LIVED PEOPLE

AND WE RECEIVED THE PEACEFUL MIND FROM THEM

AND HELD A BETTER LIFE THAN BEFORE